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Journal Entry: Thu Jun 11, 2009, 1:14 PM



I want to tell my love Guenter :iconwebcruiser:
that he and the love he gives to me make me very happy!
...btw Thank you for setting up my new CSS :bow:



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Another guy who makes me very happy
is my first grandson Philippe

The sun rises in my heart every time he smiles at me.

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As some of you know I have some difficulties with my very early years.
In case of this I have good days, not so good days and really bad days.
And I know that I have to walk a very long way before I can say "I am healed!" and that there is a bad chance that this will never happen.
While dealing with the fears of this I am happy that my love is at my side on this way. I am grateful for all the love & strength he gives me and for keeping me grounded.
Grateful for keeping faith in me
even when I sometimes can't do that too.

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A big "Thank you" to all my watchers and for all who came to my site for reading, commenting and - ever appreciated ;) - faving my poems. You all made me a great pleasure and helped me to be proud of myself!
:bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow:
want to apologize for my lack of attention here on deviantART and for the lack of answering the comments.

I have a really bad time and I haven't got the power to translate your kind words and to write a adequate answer.

The monsters of my past are hunting me.
I am trying to find a way to face up to them.
This is getting my full attention and eats up the most of my power.

But I love all the kind words, every view and - of course - every :+fav: that I get and I am very happy when my poems are able to enjoy or catch you.

I hope that I am able to get through this hard time with the love and help of =webcruiser and the help of a specialist.





First of all are the submissions that are dedicated to me:
by my love Guenter :iconwebcruiser: =webcruiser

there are so many of them but I love them all :excited:






&

by Violet :iconferice: =Ferice
A special thanks to Violet for making me this beautiful birthday-gift!



and for "Another World"





Kindesmissbrauch - Du glaubst, Du bist nicht betroffen?

Jeder und jede ist betroffen!


Du bist betroffen durch Deine Arbeitskollegin, die Dir unheimlich auf dir Nerven geht und jeden Tag eine andere Person zu sein scheint.

Du bist betroffen durch Deinen Vater, der zum Alkoholiker wurde, weil seine Schwester vom gemeinsamen Vater missbraucht worden ist.

Du bist betroffen durch die Höhe Deines Krankenversicherungsbeitrages, der so hoch ist, weil die Folgeschäden epidemische Ausmaße in unserer Bevölkerung haben.

Du bist betroffen durch Deine Ehefrau, die sich während der Geburt Eures Kindes plötzlich an ihren Missbrauch erinnert und ab da an eine andere Person ist.

Du bist betroffen durch Deinen Freund, an den Du nie richtig herankommst.

Du bist betroffen durch den Yunkie, der Dich auf der Straße überfällt, um sich seine "Verdrängungs-Medizin" zu besorgen.

Du bist betroffen durch die Oberflächlichkeit, durch die "Schutzmasken" und "hohen Wände" der vielen Menschen, denen Du begegnest und die Du eigentlich gerne näher kennen lernen würdest.

Du bist betroffen als Mann, weil das 'Ja' Deiner Freundin nichts wert ist, wenn sie niemals 'Nein' sagen durfte.

Du bist betroffen durch den rücksichtslosen Manager, der sich seine (entgangene) "Liebe" durch Geld und Macht holt.

Du bist betroffen als Vater oder Mutter, wenn Dein Kind von einem Jugendlichen überfallen und missbraucht wird, weil dieser seine eigenen erlebten Ohnmachtsgefühle in einen mächtigen Triumph über einen schwächeren Menschen umwandelt.

Du bist betroffen durch Deine Nachbarin, die spät abends ihre Musikanlage auf volle Lautstärke schaltete, die in der Nacht lautstark mit sich selbst herumflucht und ihre sie am Wochenende besuchenden Kinder regelmäßig zusammen schreit.

Du bist betroffen durch Deine beste Freundin, die ab dem 15. Lebensjahr mit allen Jungs schlief, die sie bekommen konnte, sich auf Partys regelmäßig blamierte und deren Freundschaft Du schließlich beendet hast, weil ihr euch nicht mehr verstanden habt.

Du bist betroffen, weil Dein Nachbar, der früher nie die Chance erhielt, sich selbst zu achten und wert zuschätzen, auch Dich und Deine Familie nicht achten und wertschätzen wird.

Du bist betroffen durch die vielen Sozialhilfeempfängerinnen, die durch ihre Geschichte direkt auf die Arbeitsunfähigkeit zugesteuert sind und die die Höhe Deines Sozialversicherungsbeitrages u.a. ausmachen.

Du bist betroffen durch Deine Cousine, die sich bis zur Selbstaufgabe auf ihre sportlichen Erfolge konzentriert, um für sich ein positives Selbstbild erhalten zu können und dabei ihre eigene Gesundheit aufs Spiel setzt.

Du bist betroffen durch Deine Kindheitsfreundin, die sich mit Beginn der Pubertät plötzlich verändert hatte, die nicht mehr vernünftig essen wollte, die plötzlich 'verwahrlost' herumlief, sich nur noch selten wusch und zu der Du dann den Kontakt verloren hast.

Du bist betroffen als Sohn Deiner Mutter, die ihr Trauma nie aufgearbeitet hat, bei der Du allerdings immer etwas gespürt, verdeckte Botschaften empfangen und letztlich ihr Trauma unbewusst erfasst hast und jetzt als Erwachsener "Erbe" ihrer Gefühle bist und Deine eigenen schwerwiegenden Probleme mit Deinem Leben hast.

Du bist betroffen als Partner/-in, weil Deine Freundin oder Dein Freund sich selber Verletzungen zufügt, Du ihn/sie nicht daran hindern kannst und dabei selbst fast an dem ganzen Leid psychisch draufgehst.

Du bist betroffen als Lokführer, wenn ein Dir unbekannter Mensch von einer Brücke direkt vor Deinen Zug springt, Du nicht mehr rechtzeitig bremsen kannst und Dich dieses Erlebnis den Rest Deines Lebens verfolgt.

Du bist betroffen als gute Freundin, wenn Du zuhörst, wenn Du von dem Leid Deiner Freundin erfährst und sie Dir Erlebnisse erzählt, die fern Deiner bisherigen Vorstellungskraft lagen.

Du bist betroffen als Weltbürger/-in da solange im Inneren vieler Erwachsener der Krieg ihrer unverarbeiteten, traumatischen Kindheit tobt, auch die äußeren, offenen Kriege nicht enden werden.

Du bist betroffen durch die vielen 'Mitläufer', die unkritisch alles tun und glauben, was ihnen gesagt wird, weil sie es nie anders kennengelernt haben.

Du bist betroffen durch die vielen indirekten Opfer, denn ein Opfer leidet nicht alleine, mit ihm/ihr leidet seine/ihre Familie und Umgebung.

Du bist betroffen, weil die Welt so ist, wie sie ist, und die psychische und physische Vergewaltigung von Kindern ist hier eine, wenn nicht gar DIE Hauptursache.

Du bist betroffen, weil es keine (soziokulturelle) Entwicklung geben wird, solange Kinder auf dieser Welt leiden....


Der Text wurde von der "Hamburger Arbeitsgruppe gegen sexuellen Missbrauch" zur Verfügung gestellt.




VERY IMPORTANT!

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  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Unheilig - Astronaut

Got a new CSS

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 29, 2008, 10:13 AM





I want to tell my love Guenter :iconwebcruiser:
that he and the love he gives to me make me very happy!
...btw Thank you for setting up my new CSS :bow:



- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Another guy who makes me very happy
is my first grandson Philippe

The sun rises in my heart every time he smiles at me.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

As some of you know I have some difficulties with my very early years.
In case of this I have good days, not so good days and really bad days.
And I know that I have to walk a very long way before I can say "I am healed!" and that there is a bad chance that this will never happen.
While dealing with the fears of this I am happy that my love is at my side on this way. I am grateful for all the love & strength he gives me and for keeping me grounded.
Grateful for keeping faith in me
even when I sometimes can't do that too.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

A big "Thank you" to all my watchers and for all who came to my site for reading, commenting and - ever appreciated ;) - faving my poems. You all made me a great pleasure and helped me to be proud of myself!
:bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow:




First of all are the submissions that are dedicated to me:
by my love Guenter :iconwebcruiser: =webcruiser

there are so many of them but I love them all :excited:










&

by Violet :iconferice: =Ferice
A special thanks to Violet for making me this beautiful birthday-gift!



and for "Another World"





:iconnatures-beauty-club: :iconneuedeutschelyriker: :iconpwfa: :icondeutsch: :iconrealcritique: :iconstop-the-violence: :iconthewritersnook: :iconpoetryplease: :iconwriters-club: :iconpoeticpath:




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  • Mood: Excited

Thank you for 8.000 Pageviews!

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 3, 2008, 6:44 PM
  • Mood: Disbelief
CSS Layout best viewed in FireFox


News:

First things first:

To be updated - hopefully very soon!



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I do what I have to do!

I have reduced my time on deviantART very much
because I have kicked myself in the ass to do what
is waiting in my brain for a long time.

I have started to write down my own past as a book.
Even when I don't know by now if I will let others read
this horrible story I have to do it for myself to fight the
monsters of my past.

Thank you all for your patience.

I will be back and still sometimes around here.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

A big "Thank you" to all my watchers and for all who came to my site for reading, commenting and - ever appreciated ;) - faving my poems. You all made me a great pleasure and helped me to be proud of myself!
:bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow:

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Excuse me!

I want to apologize for my lack of attention here on deviantART and for the lack of answering the comments.

But I love all the kind words, every view and - of course - every :+fav: that I get and I am very happy when my poems are able to enjoy or catch you.



Featured Art:
First of all are the submissions that are dedicated to me:
by :iconwebcruiser:
with my first birthday 2007 present

"Happy B-day my love miky6663"



&

with "true love dedicated to Maike"



&

all his other dedications to me :excited:



&

:iconnomikjustkaty: Katy with "Breaking Free"



&

:iconferice: Violet
A special thanks to Violet for making me this beautiful birthday-gift!
:bow: ;) :bow: ;) :bow:



and for "Another World"




My Clubs:
:iconnatures-beauty-club: :iconpwfa: :icondeutsch: :iconrealcritique: :iconstop-the-violence: :iconthewritersnook: :iconpoetryplease: :iconwriters-club: :iconpoeticpath:


Stamps & other Stuff:


The Original Myspace Map


Journal CSS Code Made By `Lilyas
Journal Graphics Made By `DigitalPhenom

Heavy Dispute

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 18, 2008, 2:56 PM
  • Mood: Disbelief
CSS Layout best viewed in FireFox


News:

I am unhappy!

I am an unhappy grandmother since weeks in case of a heavy dispute with my son Niels.

Because of this dispute I haven't seen my grandchild Philippe Michael for a long time now.

This hurts very much and it hurts even more that the only place where I am able to see the little boy was my own journal. For this reason I ripped Philippes photo out of this journal.



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I do what I have to do!

I have reduced my time on deviantART very much
because I have kicked myself in the ass to do what
is waiting in my brain for a long time.

I have started to write down my own past as a book.
Even when I don't know by now if I will let others read
this horrible story I have to do it for myself to fight the
monsters of my past.

Thank you all for your patience.

I will be back and still sometimes around here.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

A big "Thank you" to all my watchers and for all who came to my site for reading, commenting and - ever appreciated ;) - faving my poems. You all made me a great pleasure and helped me to be proud of myself!
:bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow:

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Excuse me!

I want to apologize for my lack of attention here on deviantART and for the lack of answering the comments.

But I love all the kind words, every view and - of course - every :+fav: that I get and I am very happy when my poems are able to enjoy or catch you.



Featured Art:
First of all are the submissions that are dedicated to me:
by :iconwebcruiser:
with my first birthday 2007 present

"Happy B-day my love miky6663"



&

with "true love dedicated to Maike"



&

all his other dedications to me :excited:



&

:iconnomikjustkaty: Katy with "Breaking Free"



&

:iconferice: Violet
A special thanks to Violet for making me this beautiful birthday-gift!
:bow: ;) :bow: ;) :bow:



and for "Another World"




My Clubs:
:iconnatures-beauty-club: :iconpwfa: :icondeutsch: :iconrealcritique: :iconstop-the-violence: :iconthewritersnook: :iconpoetryplease: :iconwriters-club: :iconpoeticpath:


Stamps & other Stuff:


The Original Myspace Map


Journal CSS Code Made By `Lilyas
Journal Graphics Made By `DigitalPhenom

Happy to be a Grandma!

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 31, 2007, 12:54 PM
  • Mood: Daily Needs
  • Listening to: the far sound of babys crying
  • Watching: everything with a smile in my face
  • Drinking: coffee
CSS Layout best viewed in FireFox


News:

I am happy!

I am happy to be a grandmother since 7:30 AM MET on Silvester 2007. My son Niels and his love Melanie are the parents of my first grandchild. It´s a babyboy and his name is Philippe Michael.

It was planned to do a cesarean at January the 4th, but this little firepig put paid on the plans of the doctors. They had to do a cesarean 4 days earlier but everybody is well.

And here he comes! Isn't he cute?





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I do what I have to do!

I have reduced my time on deviantART very much
because I have kicked myself in the ass to do what
is waiting in my brain for a long time.

I have started to write down my own past as a book.
Even when I don't know by now if I will let others read
this horrible story I have to do it for myself to fight the
monsters of my past.

Thank you all for your patience.

I will be back and still sometimes around here.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

A big "Thank you" to all my watchers and for all who came to my site for reading, commenting and - ever appreciated ;) - faving my poems. You all made me a great pleasure and helped me to be proud of myself!
:bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow: :worship: :bow:

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Excuse me!

I want to apologize for my lack of attention here on deviantART and for the lack of answering the comments.

But I love all the kind words, every view and - of course - every :+fav: that I get and I am very happy when my poems are able to enjoy or catch you.



Featured Art:
First of all are the submissions that are dedicated to me:
by :iconwebcruiser:
with my first birthday 2007 present

"Happy B-day my love miky6663"



&

with "true love dedicated to Maike"



&

all his other dedications to me :excited:



&

:iconnomikjustkaty: Katy with "Breaking Free"



&

:iconferice: Violet
A special thanks to Violet for making me this beautiful birthday-gift!
:bow: ;) :bow: ;) :bow:



and for "Another World"




My Clubs:
:iconnatures-beauty-club: :iconpwfa: :icondeutsch: :iconrealcritique: :iconstop-the-violence: :iconthewritersnook: :iconpoetryplease: :iconwriters-club: :iconpoeticpath:


Stamps & other Stuff:


Journal CSS Code Made By `Lilyas
Journal Graphics Made By =DigitalPhenom

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